Monday, December 27, 2010

Scared, Worried and Just Plain Impatient...

 We heard back from the doctor today on Kyla and Kara's lab work. They wanted to raise Kyla's meds but decided to wait and let her take it steady for 2-3 weeks then do labs again.
 Kara's ultrasound came back abnormal. Which the doctor said her thyroid felt a little funny and uneven.. That was the reason for the ultrasound. So now after he looked over the ultrasound with a doctor that specializes in thyroid alone she will be seeing this other doctor. They are going to do a fine needle aspiration or biopsy on Kara's thyroid.. To me biopsy strikes fear in my heart.. This is My baby girl! Well all 3 of them are my babies whether they like it or not but for her to have to go through this.
  Kara and I talked about it and the fact that they will be testing it to see if its cancerous or not.. She is extremely calm about it. She understands the possibility and seems fine.. but you know the saying that Still waters run deep.. She is my calm and patient girl rarely gets hyper active about anything..  When she cries its silent big tears breaking your heart kind.. That's what happens when she gets blood drawn and they dig to much. Or when she is scared. She gets big eyes and makes no sound. How do you deal with the fear in your girl's face??
  They have all went to bed and are getting ready to go spend the night with friends tomorrow who are on Christmas break.. I feel like I could just cry and cry.. I don't want to let any of them out my sight till this is over and done.
 Of course being the googling type person I had to google Thyroid nodules.. and found that more than 95% of all thyroid nodules are benign.. However being under 20 yrs old ups those chances of it being malignant slightly.
 The impatient part is waiting for the other doctors office to call to set up the appointment to meet the Thyroid specialist and more than likely they will do the biopsy that day.. When I have a date I can focus on what needs to be done. The trip is about 3 hours one way.. It will require a lot of planning on our part and hope the weather doesn't interfere(It is almost January). But that really is the least of my concerns. I guess this is where that Trusting thing comes in huh??

27 comments:

goatmilker said...

Will be praying all goes well and falls into place to make the trip a success. Waiting is the worst. God knows best and has a plan just lean on Him He will take care of all of you. Have a good day. Rebekah

WeldrBrat said...

You'd be surprised by HOW MUCH difference positive thoughts can make, while putting ALL your faith in God as you walk through this, Darlin'.

You hang in there. Hope is alive. And folks are praying.

Queenacres said...

We will keep her in our prayers! I have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis...and it wasn't diagnosed until after 5 fine needle biopsies, a CAT scan, and then finally surgery to remove the thyroid. It was an ordeal but it answered a number of health questions I'd had for years. I am sorry that your daughter and your family are having to go through this, and I pray that things go well.

Rural Rambler said...

Tonia I am sending prayers Kara's way! I just feel in my heart she is fine. Worry is something Moms do but you are right about the Trusting thing. I am hoping Kara gets an appointment quickly, gets it done and you all can breathe a big sigh of relief! Waiting is always a worry and strees producer. I never google medical stuff, it makes me a Nervous Nellie and I am such a worrier :)

Gail said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Every thing will be fine.

lisa said...

she is in my prayers as well as her momma.. ((HUGS)) Lisa

Feral Female said...

My thoughts and wishes are with you and your girls Tonia. I know how tough it is when our children are facing something difficult.

Nancy said...

You know I'm sending positive, healing vibes your way, Tonia. I know this must be a mother's worst nightmare, but you will get through it with strength and grace.

((hugs)) to you and your kidlets.

Anke said...

I am so sorry your baby girl (yes, they will always be our babies!) has to go through this. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers and I'm wishing you all the best of luck!!

Brenda said...

Maybe the Lord brought such strong feelings of Trusting to you last week because He knew what you would face this week. Take a deep breath and determine to Trust. It may feel like free-falling, but what else can you do but Trust? Worry only ties you up in to knots and that's not productive for anyone. -- Peace to your household!

Debbie said...

Its one thing when its yourself but totally different when its our children. Sending up prayers!

*hugs*
Debbie

Becky said...

I've followed your blog for a while now, and love it, but don't think I've ever left you a comment before. But I just HAD to let you know that I'm thinking of you guys and so sorry your little one has to go through all this. Its an entirely different ballgame when it's one of our children. Hang in there!
Rebecca

matty said...

Tonia,

Here's believing that God has His Hands around you and your family during this challenging time. I believe that He will guide the doctors to find what is going on and that she that her grandchildren rise up and call her blessed.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Many, many hugs,

Matty

the Goodwife said...

We will keep your daughter in our prayers. It's a testament to the way you are raising her that she is so calm. Remember to keep your hand in the Father's and that He has this all under control. We'll be praying that God gives you strength to get through this, come what may!

God bless you, nothing is worse than worrying about your child!!!

tina said...

i'll be praying for the whole process...all just part of being "comformed into His image"...not saying it's easy, it just is what it is ;)
"TRUST in the Lord with all thine heart,
LEAN NOT unto your own understanding,
ACKNOWLEDGE HIM in all thy ways
and HE SHALL direct your path."
Proverbs 3:5

Amy McPherson Sirk said...

We'll be praying for her too. I went through this 6 years ago. I have 4 nodules on my thyroid all "warm and functioning". Whatever that means. But they are benign. Over the years my thyroid function has dropped but that can be dealt with in many ways. I'm sure your girl will be just fine. In fact, I'm standing on it. Lets all stand in agreement on this one.

Amy said...

Lots of prayers to you and your family.

Been there myself with the thyroid thing. I am so glad it was me and not my dd. That being said, all you can really do is be with her and let her know that God is with her and she will be ok.

Love to you.

small farm girl said...

I'm so sorry you guys are having to go through with this. I will be praying for you both. Your baby for healing and you for peace.

The Farmer's Daughter said...

Praying for a good report for your daughter! ~Cheryl

tree ocean said...

My first appointment I said to my PA, "I hope it's not Thyroid Cancer".
and she said, "If it is, it's an easy one to cure".

I don't like the idea of aspirations and biopsy, either. I'll know Thurs what they have planned for me.

Sorry to hear and wish you the best!

Big special hugs, love!

Flat Creek Farm said...

Lots of prayers will be sent up!! A friend has had the dreaded thyroid "C" word, and she is 100% fine, cured, and doing GREAT. I am sure your Kara's issue is what 99% of those nodules are - benign! Bless her heart and yours during this time. Been there, done that... sending you many hugs!! -Tammy

hillybilly annie said...

Prayers are headed your way. It just breaks my heart when children have to go thru something of this nature, I am sure everything will be fine.

tberry29 said...

Sending prayers your way. Remember God is right there with you though every step. Its so hard when your lil one has something you cant just kiss and make better...Oh how I remember those days when A kiss was all it took. I pray that you get answers soon.
Hugs from Texas,
Trish

Blossom said...

I will keep you all in my prayers. I hope that it is benign and the numbers look promising.
Take care.

Stacey said...

I'll keep you all in prayer.

Verde Farm said...

Oh Tonia, I am just reading this today. I must have missed it last night. I am so sorry you all are having to deal with this. I can only imagine what it is like as a mother to see you child having to deal with something like this. I feel very positive that it will be nothing and your worries will be for not. I know until that report comes, the worry is inevitable. I am sending you my prayers and all green lights to your baby girl!!

Jennifer said...

I read about this on Facebook but wanted to stop by and see if there was any news. You all are in my prayers and I know this is a scary time for you and your daughter. Hope the doctor gives you all some good news soon.