We are fascinated with this thing!Lol
Estimated to be about 8 ft+/- long....
My little Red bellied friend..
I will get a good picture one day...
I have all sorts of blog subjects rolling around in my half froze head but cant seem to get one all together.. I am blaming it on the weather. It is abundantly clear that our house needs insulation! That is the most urgent thing it needs and can be easily remedied.. With time and Money...Lol Anyone recently added insulation to help give us some ideas??
I was thinking the other day(dangerous.) about where I was at about 10 years ago.. My girls were toddlers. Wow.. I was in the house all the time.. I had been struggling with major depression. I had off and on for years but it really hit that year. I was of the mind set that God would take it all away... Or that Kyle was somehow responsible for it.. He wasn't... Or if I got out more maybe that would help.. You know the girls night thing and all that stuff.. I had internet at the time and spent a lot of time on it. Not much has changed!Lol Hey I like my connections! And my blogging friends, Facebook, Goat forum and all the info at my fingertips... Okay getting distracted....Anyway
So it hit winter time and I was struggling. I noticed around February and March I started feeling better... So I quit dwelling on it and enjoyed my summer... Well fall rolled around and it got worse.. I struggled through another winter.. Then I started searching for answers.. In books, online, went to the doctor and talking to close friends... The doctor wanted to give me a pill.. I hate taking meds! I started reading about how we need sunlight to fight depression.. I thought hmmm that makes sense.. I was still thinking God could just take it away! But in the mean time I was also learning we have to deal with thing in order to Learn!!
I learned all sorts of things. I read all sorts of stories about different people fighting and winning. Some who deal with it but still are able to have a good life. I am not downing anyone who deals with it and cant seem to defeat this thing called depression or takes meds to help.. This is what happened with me... I started going Outside more often even when its cold out. Just for a few minutes during day light hours.. That winter it wasn't bad at all! Nothing like I had fought in the previous years.. I would just wonder around the yard. Or take a quick walk.. Stand on the porch for a few minutes....
Then my grandpa got sick and my mom was gone for weeks at a time. I would go and do her chores. Taking care of her goats and chickens while she was gone. I personally only had a Lab female named Princess she had been hit and almost died and then got better.. That was all the animals. My mom had started getting goats the winter before. She now had a herd of Boer does and a couple of dairy goats. I was getting to spend time with them everyday. I was HOOKED!lol..
I was outside and getting fresh air everyday. It was great. I didn't think I would have liked it so much.. We had always had animals when I was a kid but I hadn't really had anything since we had been married besides a few puppies I had um well... I accidentally ended their poor little lives with those rubber things on my car.. Twice.. I swear it was an accident..
Anyway I was always the one to help with the animals we had at home when I was a kid. When I was taking care of my moms' goats I realized I didn't feel so down. The girls and I were out more often and getting exercise. I was reading in the meantime and looking at more Natural Alternatives. Adding those to my daily routine.. I made it through a whole winter with out depression setting in .... I got goats... And chickens.. then cats... and rabbits followed!Lol
I had learned what was causing mine.. Found something to help me.. and it helped alot.. Now as to God taking it away.. He did.. He supplied me with a brain to figure it out.. He supplied me with everything necessary to fight it.. The most important thing I need was more light. It has to do with how much light your eyes take in. Not enough light can cause seasonal depression. Even artificial light can help.
Anyway I was thrown for a loop this winter with all the things that have happened in the past year. I started "feeling" it hit me again after almost 8 years of not having to much trouble.. But I have cast my cares on Him and focused on the good things.. Dealt with the bad and kept my head above water... Maybe I have just grown up??Lol at almost 35 yrs old.....
Okay this may not be of any particular interest to anyone.... I really don't know where it all came from just felt the urge to count my blessings.. Stay Warm!!